My biological clock...?

I feel like this is slightly creepy... and feel free not to tell Donny... but I think my motherly instincts or whatever you'd like to call them are legit kicking in. Like, I am just always wanting to hold a baby or an animal or something. Is that normal? I can't decide. If so... like, hey there, biological clock. Give me a few years, thanks.

Donny and I were watching Animal Cops on Animal Planet for 3 straight hours today. And then he left to go home, and I am stilllll watching it as I type. I can't stop crying about how horribly people treat their animals. How do you just like... have an animal, and then not give a crap about it anymore? Seriously, I can't understand it. Or people that raise roosters for cockfighting? Um, what? What sort of entertainment is that? Ugh. It's disgusting. And people that just leave their animals to fend for themselves... djlskdjf;sdf. It makes me so mad. And back to the motherly instinct, I like, CRAVE holding these animals. A few years ago I would have been sad, but I wouldn't really have felt like... a longing for them... I'm creeping myself out.

Damn it. They're starting to show Animal Cops episodes that were on earlier tonight. Guess I'll have to find a new show to watch for the rest of the night.

I hate the economy

I got a call today from the E&Y recruiter out of Columbus letting me know that my starting salary has decreased by $2,000. I don't even start working for over a year. The economy can suck it.

I AM thankful I have a job lined up, don't get me wrong. I am reminded of that every single day when I'm at the call center and I know that I have SUCH better things ahead of me. It's just so frustrating to have not even started with them and to get a call saying my salary is decreasing. I haven't even met the woman who called me to tell me. You could tell she felt bad about it, though... she kept saying, "I'm so sorry to be the one to tell you this; I've never even met you..." I mean, it sucks for her, too, to have to call everyone and tell them.

I knew it was coming, though. Micah had his salary decreased AND his start date moved up (with another firm), so I knew it was a possibility. I've heard of other firms completely taking back their offers. So I'm glad I'm not in that position. I'm just thinking long-term... those $2,000 could really help pay off student loans. I'm the type of person who pays off my credit card balance like, every week because I'm so scared of having any sort of debt and I refuse to ever pay interest on a credit card. So the thought of being $25,000+ in debt in less than a year is pretty terrifying to me. This news from E&Y doesn't help.

Call Center

The call center is already wearing me out. It's just a constant grind. Same thing every.single.day. And it's not even like we're busy... we're completely dead. Sign #1 the economy sucks, I guess... July is our busiest month. Two summers ago, we had a whopping 1.5 seconds between each call, that's how busy we were. And now 20 minutes can go by without a call. Sitting at a cubicle all day is infinitely more enjoyable when you're getting calls back-to-back... the time flies. Staring at your co-workers for 8 hours, however, is a much different story. So when they ask me if I'd like to go home early, I rarely say no. It's hard to justify sitting there and not doing anything. I also don't consider the extra $9.25 I would have made by staying another hour today anything that spectacular. Knowing that I'll have $20,000+ in student loans by this time next year kind of makes everything else seem pointless. Like, oh, what's another $9? Probably a bad habit to get into, meh.

In other news, I'm headed back to Oxford one last time this Saturday to finish cleaning out my apartment and to turn in my keys. It'll be sad, but I'm kind of excited to be done with it. Knowing that I need to go back and clean has been a big annoying burden in the back of my mind for the last two months, and now I can finally get rid of it.

Oh, dumbass me left my car running... with my keys inside... and the door locked... for about 3 and a half hours at work today. I went out to sit in my car during my lunch break and realized it. Luckily my mom came with my spare key. I'm such a mess. Keep in mind this is like, the second time this has happened THIS SUMMER... let's not even try to count how many times it's happened in my life. Jeez.

I kind of can't wait for my real job to start, because that means SO much more money than I have right now. And then I remember it's all going to student loans the first couple of years and I want to cry. My dreams of a new car will have to be put on hold, most likely. Sad face.

In slightly happier news, I'm going to see Erin tomorrow, and I'm really excited about this. I am also really excited that I'm only working for three hours. Hooray!

My Sister's Keeper

Good movie. It definitely makes me incredibly, incredibly grateful to be healthy and to have my entire circle of friends and family be relatively healthy and happy.

during one of the saddest parts:
katie: [starts giggling]
voiceover: my sister died that night...
katie: [dies of laughter]

I guess I should clarify that she had already sort of been laughing BEFORE the really sad part, but still :) She was remembering how hard I was crying during the Notebook, and somehow that was FUNNY to her, so she started laughing haha. Ooooo katie :)

But I'm glad I saw it. I have a hard time wanting to watch movies that I know will make me cry a lot. Um, like, when was the last time you watched Stepmom? Exactly. It's such a good movie, but I mean, who enjoys reliving the sadness of that movie? Thats kind of how I feel about this movie. I don't know if I'll be able to watch it again. Yay sad movies. But it was still soooo good.

My new obsession

Aquafina Flavor Splash in Raspberry. Mmmmmmmmmmmm. The one good thing the call center has to offer.

Another rant post

I literally have not had one good experience with Ohio State (outside the Fisher School of Business) thus far. I have had problems with numerous offices at the school, and it just kind of makes me lose hope in the school. I was SO excited to go there, and now I'm just like... getting depressed about it. The ONLY thing that is saving it so far is that Fisher just... has their shit together. And gives me a little more confidence.

It makes me realize how much I took for granted the small-school atmosphere at Miami. If you had a question about ANYTHING, you would at least get to talk to someone within a few minutes. At OSU, I've been waiting days for a phone call or an email back, and it's not coming. At Miami, you were always answered so quickly. I understand OSU's a huge school, but Miami isn't exactly a 500-student school, either. I just think I thought I was going to get the same kind of treatment at OSU that I received at Miami, and it's just coming as kind of a shock that it's pretty much the complete opposite.

:(

Cyclists.

Okay. Okay. This is a rant post.

It is one of my biggest pet peeves when there is a cyclist just biking down a major street. Especially in Westerville. Have you NOT been informed that there are literally MILES of bike paths around our town? Not to mention the SIDEWALKS surrounding your homes? If you were like, trying to bike to and from work... that's a different story. But NONE of these people look like they're going anywhere important. They're just out for leisurely rides. 1) They are putting yourself in grave danger. 2) They hold up traffic for unbelievable amounts of time, especially if they are on a busy road.

It just blows my mind. There is NO part of me that desires to bike down a road that's 45 mph. None. Like, personally, I don't enjoy being one foot away from a car that could easily kill me if they hit a pothole. Um, no thanks.

Ugh. For real. Get off the damn main roads.