Okay. I'm just going to get this off my chest quickly. Jon & Kate Plus 8 has provided me with endless hours of entertainment, laughter, wanting to kidnap their kids (joking), and just good mushy happy feelings. But honestly, it is ruining their marriage and their family. They claim that everything they do is for their kids. Their show (also "for their kids") is ruining the structure of their family. Therefore, I think they should cut this show off immediately and just work on fixing their family. They should STOP doing publicity for their show/their book/themselves, they should STOP doing speaking engagements, and they should definitely STOP filming. And they should focus on their family and repairing their marriage. Kthx.
Also, Kourtney Kardashian is an idiot for dating Scott for as long as she has. He is clearly the shadiest guy of all time (perhaps second to Spencer Pratt, but that's a minor detail). Okay. Enough tv show talk.
Anyway. I feel like I've become really emotional lately, and I've had a hard time accepting all of my friendships and everything that is going on around me. I'm unsatisfied with a lot, and it's really bothering me. Both the fact that it bothers me, and the actual state of my friendships themselves. I can't decide if it's me overreacting and overanalyzing, or if there's really something wrong. I think I just need to kind of get away for awhile. I don't know if escaping is the right answer but that's all I really know. When I have problems, I pretend they don't exist for as long as I possibly can. Like, I don't even let myself think about them. I just completely push them out of my mind. But it gets to the point where it is now, which is where I can't ignore them any longer and I just get super emo and sad. I hate it. Mostly I just hate the fact that I have issues. I like to pretend that my life is perfect. Haaaaaaa. False.
Anyway, so I think I would like to get away for awhile but um, a few problems with that. 1) Where would I go by myself? Weird. 2) That would probably require a somewhat significant amount of money. The amount of money I have spent on clothes in the last two days is pretty much disgusting, so I'm attempting to not spend as much money right now. and 3) Pretty much #1 again. Haha. Seriously, where does one go to like, just get away? By themselves? The spa? Okay, that's like, half a day. I'm talking like... 2 days. So... a hotel? Boring? Any ideas?
In other news, it was really wonderful to hang out with some Westerville friends this weekend. I just haven't seen some of them in so long, and it was great to reconnect. We can always get together and act like we just saw each other yesterday, even though it's been months. That's one of the many reasons I love us. They're so dependable, in the sense that they are just so welcoming and consistent. And I can expect that every time. I love it :)
I also loved reconnecting with Shelley. Again, she's one of those friends that I can just not see for literally MONTHS, and then we can hang out and immediately talk for hours like no time has passed at all. We've definitely had our ups and downs... but like... there's something about her that I have never found in another friend. I can't exactly put my finger on it, but I know that I won't find it again. We are so incredibly different, but there's something about us that just... clicks. I don't know. It's kind of great. Anyway, I'm so glad that I am going to be going to school with her again (for the first time in 4 years!). I can't wait to meet her new friends and have her meet/hang out with Erin and Alyssa and all my new MAcc friends. AH yay just the thought of it puts a smile on my face :)
Basically, what this long post comes down to is the fact that 1) reality shows have consumed my life, 2) I have psychological issues, 3) I am looking for a way to get away, and 4) I love reconnecting with friends. The end.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
This weekend
This weekend was so great! On Thursday I drove from Columbus to Athens to visit Donny at OU! We went out Thursday night, and it was a lot of fun! ... Minus getting verbally-sexually assaulted by a girl haha. Turns out I have a nice ass.
I went out to lunch with Katie on Friday while Donny was at a meeting. We got Chipotle... mmmmm. And she stood up for me when I got like, zero steak in my burrito bol. What a good friend :)
Donny and I were going to go hiking on Friday, but it ended up being a little too hot outside. Gross. It was too bad, because I finally got excited to do something outdoorsy haha. So we just ended up hanging out around campus and walking around. I feel like I don't really say a lot about my relationship with Donny, but I'll just say this: I really, really love him a lot. He makes me incredibly happy, and I can't believe that I was lucky enough to find him so early in my life. Just walking around with him, something that's so incredibly simple, was just so wonderful. :)
Anyway, so Saturday we got up and I took him and Tyler to 6 Fest on my way to Miami. Zach's graduation party was Saturday night at a bar in Covington, so I stopped by my apartment, got ready, and then we all went to the bar. It was actually really, really fun! The bar was so chill and his family was there, and I mean, we drank for free, so that was also great. We watched a bartender do tricks with fire, which was fun. And then we got back to our apartment and just hung out! It was so, so nice to see everyone again, just a week after graduating.
But I think I also have a problem. I just feel the need to move on too quickly. I know that I am supposed to be sad and like, in mourning of my time being over at Miami. And I am sad. I'm going to miss Miami more than I know right now. But I don't like dragging it on. I think I need a nice balance between being incredibly sad and being ambivalent about it all. I need to work on that.
This summer is shaping up to be incredibly fun!
May 21-23 Joining the fellow recent Miami alums at James' cabin in Pennsylvania
May 27 BBQ for soon-to-be MAcc students!
May 29-30 Going to OU (possibly) for some sort of dance event?
June 13 Donny's graduation
June 15-19 CRUISE IN THE BAHAMAS!!!!!!
June 21 Laura's cookout
June 28 Fireworks at Kiley's!
July 29 KELLY CLARKSON CONCERRTTTTT
And much more, I'm sure!
Yay :) Off to watch The Women (or is it underlined... I don't even know)!
I went out to lunch with Katie on Friday while Donny was at a meeting. We got Chipotle... mmmmm. And she stood up for me when I got like, zero steak in my burrito bol. What a good friend :)
Donny and I were going to go hiking on Friday, but it ended up being a little too hot outside. Gross. It was too bad, because I finally got excited to do something outdoorsy haha. So we just ended up hanging out around campus and walking around. I feel like I don't really say a lot about my relationship with Donny, but I'll just say this: I really, really love him a lot. He makes me incredibly happy, and I can't believe that I was lucky enough to find him so early in my life. Just walking around with him, something that's so incredibly simple, was just so wonderful. :)
Anyway, so Saturday we got up and I took him and Tyler to 6 Fest on my way to Miami. Zach's graduation party was Saturday night at a bar in Covington, so I stopped by my apartment, got ready, and then we all went to the bar. It was actually really, really fun! The bar was so chill and his family was there, and I mean, we drank for free, so that was also great. We watched a bartender do tricks with fire, which was fun. And then we got back to our apartment and just hung out! It was so, so nice to see everyone again, just a week after graduating.
But I think I also have a problem. I just feel the need to move on too quickly. I know that I am supposed to be sad and like, in mourning of my time being over at Miami. And I am sad. I'm going to miss Miami more than I know right now. But I don't like dragging it on. I think I need a nice balance between being incredibly sad and being ambivalent about it all. I need to work on that.
This summer is shaping up to be incredibly fun!
May 21-23 Joining the fellow recent Miami alums at James' cabin in Pennsylvania
May 27 BBQ for soon-to-be MAcc students!
May 29-30 Going to OU (possibly) for some sort of dance event?
June 13 Donny's graduation
June 15-19 CRUISE IN THE BAHAMAS!!!!!!
June 21 Laura's cookout
June 28 Fireworks at Kiley's!
July 29 KELLY CLARKSON CONCERRTTTTT
And much more, I'm sure!
Yay :) Off to watch The Women (or is it underlined... I don't even know)!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Post-Graduation
Graduation weekend was so hectic! Plus I was borderline sick due to my allergies, so that didn't really help things. Overall, though, I am so happy that my family was all able to come to watch me graduate. I kind of felt bad that I wasn't able to spend more time with them, but let's be honest, it was more important to me to see my friends that I am going to miss soon. I think (slash hope) they understood! I was also SO happy to have Donny there. He definitely, definitely kept me sane throughout the whole thing. I can't wait to be there when he graduates in a month! Plus I bought a new dress to wear, so that's exciting.
So now I'm back at home, slowly but surely unpacking, while enjoying my new TV :) It is my graduation present from my parents and I am SO happy with it! It's actually funny how it happened... I was just randomly talking to my parents, and I let them know that I wanted to buy a new TV with the graduation money I got. My dad sort of disappeared for a few minutes and when he came back, he had a TV with him! They were going to give it to me the next day, but figured it was too perfect of an opportunity to pass up! And it's nice, because it's bigger than the one I would have bought for myself, so yay! Now I get to keep that money to spend on something else, too!!
"The Real Housewives of New Jersey"... let's just say that I just watched my first episode and I am completely, completely addicted already. I love Bravo beyond belief. They just need a "Real Housewives" for every city in America... "The Real Housewives of Des Moines"... it might work, yeah?
In other news, Laura is saving my life by GIVING ME (FOR FREE) a great black leather couch, a super kitchen table and chairs, a mattress, a desk, end tables, a few appliances, and maybe a couple lamps for my new apartment. Aka... she is saving me at least $600. I LOVE HER. We're going to have to figure out what to do though... I really don't think we have room for all of that furniture in my basement, especially since my dad is trying to finish it. I don't even know if we can get the couch downstairs. Meh. I'm not about to turn down this furniture. If you're not planning on going to her garage sale, you definitely should, because she's going to have so much great stuff!!
Plans for the rest of the week:
So now I'm back at home, slowly but surely unpacking, while enjoying my new TV :) It is my graduation present from my parents and I am SO happy with it! It's actually funny how it happened... I was just randomly talking to my parents, and I let them know that I wanted to buy a new TV with the graduation money I got. My dad sort of disappeared for a few minutes and when he came back, he had a TV with him! They were going to give it to me the next day, but figured it was too perfect of an opportunity to pass up! And it's nice, because it's bigger than the one I would have bought for myself, so yay! Now I get to keep that money to spend on something else, too!!
"The Real Housewives of New Jersey"... let's just say that I just watched my first episode and I am completely, completely addicted already. I love Bravo beyond belief. They just need a "Real Housewives" for every city in America... "The Real Housewives of Des Moines"... it might work, yeah?
In other news, Laura is saving my life by GIVING ME (FOR FREE) a great black leather couch, a super kitchen table and chairs, a mattress, a desk, end tables, a few appliances, and maybe a couple lamps for my new apartment. Aka... she is saving me at least $600. I LOVE HER. We're going to have to figure out what to do though... I really don't think we have room for all of that furniture in my basement, especially since my dad is trying to finish it. I don't even know if we can get the couch downstairs. Meh. I'm not about to turn down this furniture. If you're not planning on going to her garage sale, you definitely should, because she's going to have so much great stuff!!
Plans for the rest of the week:
- finish unpacking
- finish Zach's t-shirt blanket
- maybe stop by the call center and verify that they really will take me back for the summer. Honestly, if not, I have NO idea what I'm going to do. I REALLY need a job.
- schedule a lunch with my grandparents and cousin
- go to OU!! then drive to kentucky for zach's graduation party!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Four years ago, I stepped onto this campus with low expectations. I wasn't one of the many current Miami students who can say they knew they belonged here the second they stepped on campus. I thought it was pretty, sure. It's undeniable how beautiful this campus is. But I didn't have an overwhelming feeling that this is where I belonged. I wanted it to be that place, but I wasn't sure it was.
Four years later, I've come to realize that maybe I still don't belong here. But you know what? I can't imagine myself anywhere else. I've come to love the place I was unsure about at the beginning. I've made friends that are just... so phenomenal. I'm sitting in a room with almost all of my best friends right now and I'm just... so happy. There are other not-so-good things going on in my life right now, but in this moment, I know that I am perfectly happy. These people ARE Miami to me. I was so nervous about leaving my group of friends from high school. I know that hardly anyone had what I had in high school... a huge group of friends who all truly loved each other. I knew that I couldn't duplicate that. I was scared I'd never find anything close. But I have. I've found a group of people who have supported me for the last four years. They have been here when my high school friends couldn't be (or weren't). They have been here when I've struggled with my long distance relationship. They've been here to cheer me up when I've been in the worst of moods. I've felt alone many times, sure, but I know that at the end of the day, I will always have them. Always.
Beyond that, I've received an incredible education, received a full-time job offer, and have been accepted into grad school. I've learned from absolute geniuses, and I've found fields other than accounting that have captivated me and have made me expand my interests and my views on the world (particularly women's history). I've met classmates who I am positive will have a huge impact on the world. I am so excited to see where they all end up, because I know they will go far.
All in all, it's been an incredible four years. I've run out of good adjectives to use to describe them, so I guess I'll just stick with incredible. I know that the rest of my life holds so much more, and I'm excited to continue with new experiences. But I will always, ALWAYS look back on my time at Miami with fondness.
Four years have come and gone and I have a lot to show for it. The best thing I got out of this time is my wonderful group of friends :)
Four years later, I've come to realize that maybe I still don't belong here. But you know what? I can't imagine myself anywhere else. I've come to love the place I was unsure about at the beginning. I've made friends that are just... so phenomenal. I'm sitting in a room with almost all of my best friends right now and I'm just... so happy. There are other not-so-good things going on in my life right now, but in this moment, I know that I am perfectly happy. These people ARE Miami to me. I was so nervous about leaving my group of friends from high school. I know that hardly anyone had what I had in high school... a huge group of friends who all truly loved each other. I knew that I couldn't duplicate that. I was scared I'd never find anything close. But I have. I've found a group of people who have supported me for the last four years. They have been here when my high school friends couldn't be (or weren't). They have been here when I've struggled with my long distance relationship. They've been here to cheer me up when I've been in the worst of moods. I've felt alone many times, sure, but I know that at the end of the day, I will always have them. Always.
Beyond that, I've received an incredible education, received a full-time job offer, and have been accepted into grad school. I've learned from absolute geniuses, and I've found fields other than accounting that have captivated me and have made me expand my interests and my views on the world (particularly women's history). I've met classmates who I am positive will have a huge impact on the world. I am so excited to see where they all end up, because I know they will go far.
All in all, it's been an incredible four years. I've run out of good adjectives to use to describe them, so I guess I'll just stick with incredible. I know that the rest of my life holds so much more, and I'm excited to continue with new experiences. But I will always, ALWAYS look back on my time at Miami with fondness.
Four years have come and gone and I have a lot to show for it. The best thing I got out of this time is my wonderful group of friends :)
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